I dunno why but somehow I am in a very good mood the past few days. On Thursday I was hell of depressed because of school but then, on friday I finally felt the sensation of being happy!

I have been told the last week by the most different people that I have changed and I spent most of my time finding out what they've meant by that cause I didn't feel like having done any progress at all. On Thursday it suddenly hit me that I didn't change but fell back into old disgusting habbits that I thought would be over. This is why I was so unbearable for most of the people around me... at least I guess cause I still have no idea what is going on.

Over that and some anemia I found a way to get over myself and my bad mood. I was drawing like 3 or 4 pictures every day and even found someone with a scanner. And guess what, that person lives across the hallway of my home and is my brother! ^^ that bastard never told me he has one!! >< and I was going crazy!!!
well, it really was a torture to scan this pictures with him cause he was in some annoy-my-little-sister-to-hell mood, which I responsed to with an annoy-my-brother-to-hell mood. We were also fighting after that and I don't mean arguing we were punching and kicking like we haven't done it for a few years now though it was really unfair cause I'm really really weak TT_TT

And I'm also happy cause my sickness is over now and I can sing again without it sounding too stupid